16/08/2019

Life Lately


Time for another “Life Lately” post, because you know what I owe it to you, my blog supporters. In my previous update, I was having a little rant about being overlooked by PR and so forth. That post, believe it or not, brought me so much joy because I’ve felt this intense sense of rejection around the subject for such a long time. I so badly wanted to say something, I wanted to voice my opinion but I was too scared. For what? I guess for more rejection. However, since getting it out there a huge sense of relief filled my soul, it was like “there I’ve said it.” 

I mean, in all honesty, I’m not just some jealous, resentful bloggerI have been blogging since 2012 and I try to deliver excellence so in all fairness this rant was mine to have and take and it felt good! I did realize that I should work on my stats as that’s ultimately what sells. So I’m shifting the blame and I’m starting from scratch. What is it that I need to work on? What do I want from my blog? In all transparency, all I want is just the same amount of fancy press drops that the rest receive. So, if I work on my stats and continue to deliver and still not receive recognition there will be another rant, until then I’m cool. 

For now, I have a few giveaways up my sleeve to do just that. Products from Revlon, Yardley, Satiskin and Nivea. Most all sponsored, mind you. You see, I just don’t except a defeat, I hate giving up and in most cases, after that feeling of rock-bottom passes, I’ll eventually get up and just start again. Because, deep within my heart I know that somehow, my time will come. 

I was also super upset when I learned that a distant family member from my grandpa’s side committed suicide. Now if you can recall, I made a pact with God where I asked Him to see my sobriety as a sacrifice and to therefore never allow something like this in my family ever again. I'm heart sore and confused and even mad about this – so much emotion all of which I’ll need to dissect and analyze. All of which will take some time. 

Well, surely I was wrong in making pacts with God in the first place, it just doesn’t work that way now does it? What I know for sure is that I want to write and inform more about the subject of suicide and suicide prevention. I don’t know, but I almost feel like making it part of my life’s work, to speak more openly about it. I know it’s morbid and horrid and that it’s something we all want to avoid really speaking about. But guess what? I don’t really feel like I have a choice in the matter. That’s how it works in life sometimes

Feel free to drop me a line on Facebook or Twitter, most definitely reach out to me if you feel that you’ve reached rock-bottom. I can’t promise that I’ll be able to change things for you but I will be able to guide you into a direction of light.


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